Sanguine

This is an important post to me.

When i was much younger i took a personality test.

The result showed that i was an influencer and sanguine.

I agreed.

But i did not know exactly what sanguine was.

Sanguine is a colour. I thought it was like cyan. Blue-green, turquoise.

It's peaceful. Sanguine sounds so peaceful anyway.

So in everything i did from then i was always more passive, because i thought i was.

But sanguine is not cyan, and sanguine is not peaceful.

I was told i was something i was not,

I believed i was something i was not,

I acted like something i was not,

I became something i was not.

Sanguine...

Is actually the colour of blood.

And it does not get more passionate than that.

I was Sanguine.

But after acting cyan for so long,

I am sanguine no more.

But this leads to the question.

What really matters?

Knowing who you are now?

Or knowing what you want to be, and believing it?